Journal 1 Thursday 19th

I'm definitely starting to get worried that I have a limited ability to focus for extended periods of time. Lately I have been making and thinking about art but It seems slightly unproductive for some reason. Maybe it's because I'm not producing anything with a clear set of goals and timeframes and that kind of nonsense. SO... to remedy this dillemma I figure I will do what I set out to do with this blog and make it a very frequent (daily if possible diary that anyone can read or not be bothered at all).

I figured that this is what I feel should be happening with the internet anyway. A way for communal creativity Where people can work on other people's creative ideas and combine them with their own at their own will. So here I go...!

Today I got up and spent the first 2 hours of the day watching you-tube videos of noise-rock bands. This one really appealed to me. http://vimeo.com/10818338  ... and my day felt somehow better since I watched it. Then I spent some time reading the journals of Keith Haring and I keep getting really amazed that they almost document the same crap I've thought over in my practise but with an intangible diffference.

Then after reading this and feeling an almost manic happiness all morning I want to document emotions. In a raw way. I want people to feel something when they see art. I want to feel things when I see art. Because this is what I think the purpose of art is. F*ck putting concepts in art. Art is an excuse for all people, regardless of race, sex, age or wealth, to indulge in something as ephemeral as emotional response.

I've been working on wood. This is my first attempt at staining it, putting some black ink on it and cutting into it. I want to show the grain of plywood, like a Japanese architect trying to reveal the nature of the raw material. I want this kind of rawness combined with the same emotional rawness of the Health video clip like in the moment where he is about to knife her. The rage on his face. And like the prolonged moment where she realises what she just did.